I’ve done a lot of things in the past few weeks, which when inspected, would clearly point to a mixed state episode. Spoke to my psychologist about it. His advice was something along the lines of “what is done is done, don’t look back, lift up your head and look forward”
What did he mean when He said lift up your head? How I understood it is that I should not look at what has been going on in the past few weeks but rather look inwards and remember who I am, especially who I am in Christ. With this new perspective I should then take back control of my life and do what I know is right and good for me. I will need God in this, He knows what I can control like my workload and what is beyond my reach like the amount of hours my body allows me to sleep. This episode will pass, but I don’t have to sit back and continue in my destructive ways. I can make a change, by allowing God to lift up my head and help me move forward in the best direction. I m not a victim of my disorder, I can manage it. Yes sometimes it wins, but I can and will always lift up my head again and move forward.
Psa 3:3 But you, O LORD, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head.