With experience comes growth (if you seek it out) with growth comes change, and as I journey on with God by my side, I learn more about Him, recently a bout of depression has added a painting to my art gallery that is my relationship with the Almighty.
The biggest change is about what it means to have a real relationship with the God who is the creator of everything, who’s beyond comprehension, yet makes more sense than this world. Compassionate beyond any logic and most of all in love with me. I’ve gained respect for Him as I learned what He is and what He is not. He is not someone you can spin a story to, you cannot surprise Him or disappoint Him, He has no desire to be impressed. He understands even when you keep quiet.
His advice flows like a gentle stream into your mind, refreshing you, giving you hope. It’s like a torrent river dragging you with, into motion to pursue the ultimate. His Grace is like the ocean drowning you until you die to yourself and feel alive for the very first time.
Circumstances have pushed me into a corner recently and it is quite a tight squeeze… This has led to a depressive spell… I have addressed the circumstances, but as I mentioned in one of my previous posts, the depression is still lingering. As anyone who has spent a round in the boxing ring with depression will tell you, looking to God for hope and power does not just flow naturally, in fact your relationship with Him is one of the first things to take a hit. It should not be so, for many reasons. Here are a few:
- He is the only one who is truly okay with you, and not freaked out by this depro thing you’re going through.
- He is the only one who fully understands what you are going through since He is living inside of you and knows you better than you know yourself.
- Knowing what you are feeling, He still loves and accepts you, no matter how dark you go.
Those are just the reasons why you shouldn’t shy away from Him, now for the reasons you want Him on your side:
- He carried this burden with Him to the cross and it is now your chance to leave it there at His feet.
- Because He died for all sin (and that includes pain and suffering as well not just doing wrong things) His blood that flowed so freely also covers this, it is not the enemy’s to torture you with, It is God’s to carry with you.
- He is our hope and the strength of our heart. When you place your hope in Him, that He will carry you through this (keep in mind this may be via many avenues), You are putting your hope on a rock, the foundation, the cornerstone.
- He is the great comforter. When you call upon Him, whether it be a sideways glance or a full on shout, He will comfort you through His Spirit that dwells within you.
Hope this new found knowledge of who God is in relation to depression and my relationship with Him, stirs confidence in you to allow Him in when things go awry. Like I said at the beginning: His comfort and understanding crushes over you like a wave. His advice flows like a gentle stream into your mind, refreshing you, giving you hope. It’s like a torrent river dragging you with, into motion to pursue the ultimate. His Grace is like the ocean drowning you until you die to yourself and feel alive for the very first time.