Sounds like I need a cup of faith tea rather than another peace-and-calm juice box.
Leave the support for now, don't answer all the prayers for answers and help, and just...
All our toil and endeavour in this world is not for something, but for Someone.
We want big directional signs from God. He just wants us to pay attention.
But the cliffs feel them pounding, pounding relentlessly.
I can clearly see He was with me, beside me and walked in front of me
"Dark Charlotte" the persona that had been formed over years, the one that kept me sane and alive despite all that I went through in my 29 years, was feeling threatened and insecure by my newfound happiness.
I softly asked God to show me the truth, He answered tenderly.
The enemy meant for this depression to cause me harm, but once again God is using it for His purposes. I am in awe of Him, I'm in love...
Because He lives, I can live. I can give it a go, I can try every day. He is my reason for not leaving this world.